It all feels like such a dream. It’s as if it was just yesterday I was coming home from the hospital after reaching such a dark and scary point in my life, to only stumble upon this pageant. I believe everything happens for a reason, and although this may sound odd to some who don’t understand, this pageant saved me or at least gave me the motivation to save myself. When I reached such dark times, it was not because I felt alone or like no one loved me. Externally, I have always been blessed with support from all angles of my life. But what brought me down was my low self-esteem. Although, having many goals achieved within my 3 years of advocacy, I never had any personal goals for myself; something that I can work to in order to better myself as an individual, not just as a public figure. After applying for Miss Teenage Canada, I then had something to work towards for myself, but that also benefited my community. After receiving my title, attending all the incredible events, meeting such wonderful people who still to this day touch my life with their stories and seeing what an impact I can make on young girls in particular are just the tip of the iceberg to the happiness and confidence I gained with this pageant. It’s hard to put into words just how this pageant week changed my life; from conquering my (not so obvious) fear of social gatherings, to learning to appreciate every moment and be grateful for it all. The bullying from when I was younger, and the confidence that it took from me is now slowly being regained, and I am ready to take on any new challenge with an open mind and positive outlook. I want to thank my beautiful room-mate Hannah, Miss Teenage Halifax, for not only being the most wonderful pageant sister, but also being my best friend. I care about you so much and miss you everyday.
All of us girls, came from a different back ground with each of our own stories of failure, triumph and heartbreak, yet we all proved on that stage our strength. Our strength to look at a scary and intimidating situation, and face it head on, strength to go back on an elevator after being stuck in one for like 3 minutes, strength to wear heels for hours on end, and the strength to hold our heads held high, support our sisters win or lose and love unconditionally. Although with such a large group of girls, I learned something new about each and every one of you and I thank you ladies so much for your strength, beauty and love through this journey.
To the beautiful future title holders, remember to never forget who you. Things will get scary, stressful, you’ll be angry and intimidated and cry and want to rip your crown off because this darn thing just keeps falling (bobby-pins will be your new best-friend ps.) But don’t ever lose that special something that made you stand out in the first place. This is a job, a very serious and hard job, but all the hard-work is what makes this experience so rewarding. Whether you win overall or don’t, you made your community, family and friends proud. Be yourself, embrace those weird silly things about yourself and shine brighter than that crown. Go with the attitude of “I am capable of wining, I will embrace every moment and I am proud of how far I’ve come.” Show the judges, peers and yourself why you are there.
Lastly, congratulations to our new Miss Teenage Canada 2015, Sarah Dawn of Red Deer, Alberta. I wish you the best of luck in your future endeavors.
If any girls have questions, feel free to contact me via social media. I will be continuing to update this blog on my recent appearances and news up until my reign comes to an end. Thank you to everyone who has gotten me to this point in my life. I am excited to see what other adventures come my way as my reign as Miss Teenage Airdrie 2015 comes to an end.
Mackenzie, Miss Teenage Airdrie 2015